Tuesday, June 30, 2009

Umm...I have no idea what day I'm on but here we go!!!

So I'll just recap over the last however many days...

Bread is my hardest to overcome BUT I don't think that will be a problem anymore....

I've been doing pretty good...

I need to excersize more....

Yesterday (Monday June 29) I went out with a friend from church. I asked Jamie if she'd like to go to the bocci ball place (where I know i would have been ok with a salad) or to this really good pizza place (where I knew I'd have to use my cheat day). She choose the really good pizza place...

We wordered Bread sticks with moz, parm, garlic sauce and a pizza with pep and sausage.....It was SOOOOO good....untill...well lets just say...I have learned my lesson. When you've eaten healthy for two weeks with maybe a bite of bread here and there...and then you go full blown out and eat nothing but a meal full of carbs, well your body is not happy and rejects it!!! so with that said...i think i've overcome bread! for the time being!

I still hurt today! lol

I feel good other than my icky yesterday! Going out to lunch at chilis with some friends and I will be having a salad! lol

I'm missing Tim, he's gone for 11 more days :( But who's counting?!?!?! well I will try and be more faithful in blogging on my journey of changing moments! :)

Wednesday, June 24, 2009

Day Six through Nine

The weekend went good! I went shopping at the whole foods store. It can be so overwhelming there! So many choices and I have no idea what a lot of it is! lol

To be honest I don't remember everything I ate over the weekend but I'm going to give it a try!

A Peach and Banana for Breakfast (I didn't get in until really late Saturday morning for Port Huron so we woke up at 11:45!! lol)
Cleaned house
Around 4 Tim and I went out to Red Lobster for Dinner
I had grilled shrimp with steamed broccoli
and 4 cheddar biscuits (I hope you didn't read this! lol)

2 Hard boiled eggs and a banana for breakfast
Turkey burgers with mustard for lunch and dinner!

2 Hard Boiled eggs for breakfast
A banana and Peach for snacks
leftover Turkey Burger
Apple for snack
Scrambled Hamburger for dinner with mustard :)

2 Hard Boiled eggs for breakfast
A banana and Peach for snacks
Grilled Chicken Salad from Wendys
Apple for Snack
Baked Chicken Breast with Parmesan and Mrs. Dash
Banana with Peanut butter for dessert :)

I didnt "walk" but I did move around alot, cleaning house, working in Teen Class, shopping and so on. I had a great weekend and enjoyed myself!!!

I feel good! I've lost 12lbs and will keep track of measurements this week to see if I lose inches :)

Saturday, June 20, 2009

Day Five....

Yikes, so Day five started out GREAT
Eggs for breakfast
Peach for snack
Chicken with veggies for Lunch
Fruit salad for snack
Then came dinner, I had debated all the way up to Port Huron, should I be good, should I eat the stinkin chicken wings, should I be good, oh the chicken wings sound so good, but ann you've been doing so well, but its BDUBS (Buffalo Wild Wings) so once I got there, I decided.....

Yeah I disappointed myself and Had 10 Honey BBQ chicken wings *sigh*

I felt horrible later, but Tim tried to reassure me and say "Honey its ok to have a cheat night once a week"....well thats fine, but its only gonna be once a month (Prayfully)!!

Other than the rough night (I hate peanut butter cookes, and chips and dip also, I know, I know, I'm just as disappointed in myself!)....
I feel good!
I started the day off with my new favorite breakfast/lunch food....Hardboiled eggs and mustard with pepper! Oh yeah...I'm serious....It was SOOOOOO good!
I probably wont update until Monday...but it was good! :)

Friday, June 19, 2009

Day Four

Ok So day four wasnt to bad

3 scrambled eggs for breakfast (of course the omega3 kind and organic!)
a banana for snack
2 brawts for lunch (this is probably not a good choice but its all I had)
a banana for snack
Chicken and Veggies for dinner (this was actually really good! I threw in a bunch of different veggies I had and let them simmer with the chicken so tasty!)
I made a fresh fruit salad and enjoyed that as my dessert

My biggest issue is late at night I get so HUNGRY! I mean not bored out of my mind hungry but literally my belly talks to me hungry! lol So I ate another banana with peanut butter which helped with the hunger but I sure was craving a cheese burger. I almost went to McDonald's but talked myself out of it....a few times! lol I need to make sure to buy some red meat this week for dinners :)

I am thankful for so many friends and family who have been supporting me. I mostly receive the support from my facebook page . The Lord has been so good to me. I continue to find strength in Him as I try and change my eating style.

I went for a long walk yesterday. I took rusty with me. I wish I had my camera with me. The one time I DON"T carry it around I miss such a great moment! As rusty was running around exploring so many things to see and smell on the Campus he found a water puddle. Those of you who know my rusty, you know he LOVES water. I guess thats what you get with a Lab! He plopped right in and started rolling around while lapping up some tasty cold water! I would usually get so mad if he did that because we are usually letting him out to go potty or something but since we didnt' have anything else to do that evening I went ahead and let him play! I'm telling ya, he really is like a baby! That dog brings so much happiness. He loves to just snuggle up to you first thing in the morning. I know those cute eyes are looking at me saying "Momma please don't go to work, stay home with me and throw my kong for me endless times!" :)

Thursday, June 18, 2009

Day One through Three

Well, I considered starting this on Monday but I wanted to make sure I'd make it through the first few days....

I started a new way of eating...well its not new, but it is to me....

In April of this year a good friend of mine told me about someone she knew who had been doing fertility treatments and struggling to get pregnant. Her friend was doing everything she could find to try and get pregnant. Her last option was to go to a acupuncturist. The acupuncturist informed her that she probably had pcos (Poly Cystic Ovary Syndrome) and told her to cut out all refined/processed food. She did that and within three months she was pregnant. Once Kerry shared this story with me, I was all over it! I remember a couple of my doctors telling me I most likely had this but no one ever really told me what to do. They just kept saying "Lose weight". Well I have been trying to lose weight for YEARS!!! I was active in High School, I played Volley Ball, Soft Ball and Basket Ball. I enjoyed many teen activities, I struggled because it seemed like I just kept putting the weight on, no matter what I did. So In the end, I just about gave up. Last year I was so close within a month or so of getting the Gastric Bypass Surgery. I have nothing against that, but I really wanted it to be my last option. I am not one that thinks about food all day every day. I just want to live a life that isn't limited by my weight. I have struggled with depression and a sense of loss since I was young.

It wasn't until I started researching PCOS that I finally felt like there was HOPE! As I read book after book, website after website, tears would stream down my face. I finally fit in somewhere! The symptoms are so broad but they were there! The constant fatigue, the pain from a touch, the unexplained weight gain, the irregular periods or lack of periods, the major mood swings....the list just goes on! They are all there!!! I don't have all the symptoms such as acne or hair loss (though I have noticed in the last year my hair has thinned out even more!) but its all there. Just when I felt like maybe I was lazy, and maybe I just needed to move on, the answers were there!

Now, I haven't gone to a doctor to be completely tested. I am emotionally drained from going from Doctor to Doctor. I have had to explain the last 15 years of my life to doctors who don't even want to bother and just want to say "You need to diet and lose weight and none of these issues will happen" well I know you went to school for so many years, and you think you have all the answers, but you don't! I am not just a piece of paper you can throw an answer on and that makes life all better! You don't live with the many struggles I deal with on a daily basis so please don't try and tell me what you think I should do, until you have been there! *done venting*

This process has not only been hard on me but on my husband as well. He has battled the Doctors with me, seen me give up, and seen me try to do things that deep down inside I would LOVE to do but physically I can't. He has seen the pain in my eyes and felt the pain from my heart. I don't deserve such a loving and caring man, but I am so thankful for him!

So with all that said...

I started my new way of eating on Monday June 15, 2009. I am cutting out sugar, flour, processed, and dairy (Out of all of them, this is the hardest for me, I know weird but so true!) food.

Wasn't to bad, maybe because I was excited about the new change....
I had a peach for breakfast
2 Hours later I had a Banana
2 Hours later I had an Apple
For Lunch I had Celery with Peanut Butter
2 Hours later I had another peach
For dinner I had Roasted Turkey breast, roasted carrots, celery and onion and a side salad with a little dressing (this dressing had a small amount of sugar in it but I only had a small amount).
For dessert I had some sliced strawberries
Everything except the Peanut Butter was organic.

I think day one was good. It was hard because I did feel hungry every two hours but I just ate small portions :)

Tuesday June 16, 2009
Breakfast I had two hard boiled eggs
2 Hours later I had a banana
2 Hours lather I had a banana with peanut butter (I find I need a little protein)
for lunch I had a Salad that had fresh Pineapple, Mandarin oranges, strawberries, lettuce carrots, and tomatoes. 2 tbs Fat Free Honey Mustard (I Know loaded with sugar! but I didn't have very much I promise, the fruit made the salad pretty wet)and plain grilled chicken
For dinner I had another salad (tomato, cucumber, red pepper, green pepper) and shredded turkey breast (from the previous nights dinner) and very little Green Goddess salad dressing
For dessert a few strawberries

Wednesday June 17, 2009
Ok so it was really hard! I really wanted to eat some chips, or have a CHEESE Burger with fries. I mean serious cravings...but I held out!

2 Hard boiled eggs for breakfast
2 hours later 1 banana with peanut butter
2 hours later a Mandarin orange salad from Wendys
3 hours later a banana with peanut butter
For Lunch I had the other half of my wendys salad
For dinner we went to Red Robin, this was the true test. I mean You go to red robin and you HAVE to get the freckled lemonade, unlimited fries, and a burger......BUT
I got a naked burger (No bun no cheese) with lettuce, tomato and onion and some mustard. I had a side salad (It was HUGE so I only ate half of it) and two slices of Cantaloupe. It was just right! Very tasty!!!
For dessert I had a banana with peanut butter

I know, I have been eating a lot of bananas but they are convenient and not as expensive! lol I will shop better next week for the right kind of food so i will have a slight more variety!

My goal is not to lose weight (which I know will happen and am excited about) but to change my lifestyle of eating...In the end Tim and I would love to hear the words "You are pregnant"!

I hope you enjoy the adventure of the Change...and maybe it will inspire you to make a difference in Your life!