19 days ago...I made a choice that would change my life....and its only been 19 days...
You can read more about my life change here.
Today I've been a little extra emotional. It could be some hormonal but I'm chalking it up to some new revelations about.....me.
Since the age of 13 (this is when I really remember my weight gain) I have struggled to be active. I played sports in high school and actually was a somewhat of an active person. As the weight piled on, being active, let alone, doing just normal day to day things became more and more difficult. You never really realize how much you give up in your life until you start to gain your life back. Today I was on instagram I was looking for some inspiration and came across one of the ladies I have just recently started following. Rya, you can find her instagram here, made a statement after completing 38 days on her whole30 journey that she feels ALIVE. I started crying when I read that...that one word...ALIVE is how I feel!
Alive....thats a great word! As a Christian I know my Savior is ALIVE and that I am thankful for. As a heavy person who has struggled with weight gain because of hormone imbalances no one really understands the struggle unless they have been there. I have dieted several times in my 34 years of life and not one time have I felt this good! I either felt limited, starving, or still in great pain.....
And then there was today....
Please understand, I have had several non scale victories in just 19 days. But this one....this one....has been a long time coming! This morning my puppy (13 year old lab) wanted to go outside so I went out and sat down while he sniffed and laid around. It was such a beautiful day! Warm, sunny and with an amazing breeze. I had decided I wanted to go to one of the state parks and go for a hike. So I got on the internet and found Cunningham Falls State Park. It has the largest waterfall in the state :) bonus...hike and your reward is a fall, I'm game! Of course I needed Tim to go with me for support. So we ate lunch, and headed out to the park. When we arrived there were two different paths to chose. One to the left and the more difficult way and to the right...the "easier" one. Well I saw a mom and her little toddler go the easy way so I knew if the kid could do it, I could! so we headed up. There were some big inclines and it was a half a mile to the falls. Other than being out of breath (yes I know its because of my weight but I'd like to feel part of it was because of my head cold as well lol) I did not have any back pain! I could not believe it! I kept walking expecting my lower back to start hurting! I was in tears by the time we got back to our car. Happy, joyful tears! No back pain!
The falls were beautiful and nice to see. I was glad I did it. I was glad my husband who was tired went with me. I am glad I captured some of the moments so that one day, when I look back, I will remember just how hard I fought to be healthy! One mile down....many....many more to go!
TruLee Amazed,
Ann Marie
Friday, May 23, 2014
Monday, May 12, 2014
Whole30 How its changing my life... (week one)
Well, as I type this I realize I am on day 8 of the Whole30
challenge. I have had several people ask
for the recipes for the foods I have been making and so I thought I’d put it
together like this. It all started
because I found someone on instagram who had such an inspirational story. She weight 350+ pounds and had lost 40+
pounds in a few months by doing the whole30 challenge. So, I rolled my eyes, thinking this would be
another one of those “you have to buy our pills, food and whatever else to do
it” thing but went and looked anyway. I
am so thankful I did. On the website www.whole30.com they give you everything you
need to start the challenge. The list of
foods you can eat, some recipes and so on.
They share with you their experience and talk of a book they had written
“It starts with Food”. You don’t HAVE to
buy the book…but it was VERY informative. I highly recommend it.
So first I want to start with the “why did I do this”. I have known for a few years now that the
only way I was going to be able to take control of my hormones (I suffer with
PCOS) was I needed to go the whole, natural way. I needed to change my diet and start putting
good things in and leaving bad things out.
Well it sounds easy….but it’s the hardest thing I think an American can
do. To not eat any dairy, sugar, gluten,
fast food, processed food and so on you have to 1) be rich and 2) have self control. I can assure you I am far from rich and self
control was just a saying….
I have changed some of things I have been eating or where I
get my food for a few years. This year I
had started substituting things in and making very slow changes not to
interrupt my “brain” from thinking I was trying to take away its favorites. Then I came across whole30. At the time I was desperate. I was bloated, my stomach, back, knees and
every other part of my body hurt. I was
tired. All. The. Time. I was out of
breath going up 5 steps on our porch.
April was also a very busy month with several things planned and I was
exhausted wondering where the energy was going to come from to finish the many
projects I had. Whole30 seemed like the
answer.
So I set a date after all the big events (that always
include the most amazing and unhealthy food) would be finished and shared with
my husband what we would be doing. Yes,
I am making him do it. I know, I’m a bad
wife but its not because I think he needs to be healthy, its because I need him
to be healthy with me, so that I can stay strong. My husband about died when I said no dairy no
sugar…of any kind…other than fruit. He
loves a little coffee with his sugar and cream. He whined, and cried and
boohooed…but in the end he got back up off the floor and said he would do
it. And I have to say he is my hero! He
has been strong, and trying to come up with different ways to sweeten his
coffee….ummm he’s still working on that lol…
So day one came along and we jumped right in….the following
will be the first 7 days of our journey.
Keep it simple, don’t over complicate and know that it is A LOT of work
to eat whole but it is so WORTH it.
Day 1:
Breakfast: over
med-low heat Saute Kale and onions with some Coconut oil, crack eggs in and
scramble until done. Small serving of
Pineapple and banana
Lunch:
Romaine Lettuce, Onion, Tomatoes, Peppers, ham, pepperoni, red wine vinegar and
balsamic vinegar.
Dinner: Seasoned Chicken Thighs (Old Bay, Pepper and parsley)
cooked at 350 for 1 hour. Cut sweet
potatoes to ½ thickness. Spread oil on both sides season with salt and pepper
and cook at 350 for 30 minutes turning halfway through. I used a papered chef stone and it does
amazing things to sweet potatoes. :)
Day 2:
Breakfast: Scrambled eggs, Sweet
Potato Hash browns (chop sweet potatoes up into small cubes, and saute in
coconut oil (or bacon grease) until done) and a small serving of Pineapple
Lunch:
Leftover chicken thighs from the night before, celery, tomatoes seasoned with
old bay (it’s a Maryland thing) and a small serving of pineapple
Dinner:
Meatballs (ground beef, egg, salt, pepper, parsley. Roll into small balls and cook on cookie
sheet (or pampered chef stone) at 350 for 20-25 minutes), salad with Romaine Lettuce, onion, tomatoes,
pepperoni and balsamic red wine vinegar.
Day 3:
Breakfast:
Scrambled Eggs with coconut oil, Sauteed sweet potatoes with onions, and
chopped apple (I used one apple for the three of us).
Lunch:
Applegate Fireroasted sausage, fried in a skillet, on top of a salad of romaine
lettuce, onion, tomatoes, steamed broccoli and topped with balsamic red wine
vinegar dressing.
Dinner: Roast
from the crockpot (I just used the ribeye roasts (or really whatever is on
sale) and season it with salt and pepper (I use sea salt and coarse pepper) and
then add some onions and let the bad boy cook all. Day. Long. And tempt you
because it smells so stinkin good.) steamed broccoli and steamed green beans
topped with homemade ghee (ghee is butter without the dairy lol. You just heat two stick over med to low heat
and let it cook until all the dairy sinks to the bottom. There are several videos on youtube that
shows you what to do. You do not want to
burn it! But the end result if done correctly is this yummy nutty flavored
goodness! That taste like butter…mostly)
Day 4:
Breakfast:
Scrambled eggs with coconut oil, sweet potatoes and some apple.
Lunch:
Leftover roast warmed and put on a bed of curly green leaf lettuce, tomatoes,
peppers, onions, and some pepperoni with balsamic red wine vinegar.
Dinner: Caribbean
seasoned Pork Tenderloin (used a seasoning I found at Mom’s organic grocery
store, cooked it at 350 for 45 minutes) ontop of curly green leaf salad with steamed
broccoli, onions, peppers, and balsamic red wine vinegar.
Day 5:
Breakfast:
Medium fried eggs with coconut oil, bacon and sweet potatoes fried in bacon
grease (I’m not going to lie, it’s a whole new world when using bacon grease
and sweet potatoes…amazing stuff)
Lunch:
Salad from the night before.
Dinner:
Chipolte. We got double meat (chicken)
with onions and peppers, salasa and lettuce.
It was delicious!
Day 6:
Breakfast:
Scrambled eggs with coconut oil and bacon
Lunch:
Albacore tuna with some mustard and I put that ontop of cucumber slices and
cherry tomatoes and dipped them in balsamic vinegar
Dinner:
Chicken in the crockpot (seriously I have been making chicken in the crockpot
for YEARS but this recipe I found a year or so ago is AMAZING! Just put your
whole chicken in the crockpot, season with whatever you like. I used old bay (it’s a Maryland thing but you
can find it in the seasoning aisle) coarse black pepper, and parsley. Add veggies
if you’d like and cook on high for 4 hours it comes out perfect!), cooked green
beans with ghee and a few chunks of pineapple.
Day 7:
Breakfast:
Scrambled eggs with coconut oil, cucumber slices and pineapple
Lunch: Bone
Broth (just take the bones from the chicken the night before (and skin and cartilage
and so on) add veggies of your choice, I did carrots, onions and celery fill
the crockpot to the top with water and cook on low for 12-24 hours (I just do
it the night I made the chicken and let it cook until the next day) and you
have yummy healthy bone broth) with chicken left over from the night before,
kale and some mushrooms seasoned with salt and pepper.
Dinner:
Seared Steak seasoned with salt and pepper.
I sautéed mushrooms and onions in ghee.
Leftover greenbeans from the night before and sweet potato fries (Just
cut the sweet potatoes into strips toss them in some melted bacon grease,
season with salt and pepper, cook them at 375 for 30 minutes turning once or
twice).
Here are some things I have learned or tips that may help:
- * Organic is best but if you can’t afford all
organic try and buy what you can organic mainly meat and veggies and fruits
that do not have a peel.
- *When you first start this, if you have not lived
a “healthy” lifestyle, listen to your body.
You will be hungry more often, eat, don’t starve yourself. There will come a time when you will start to
feel full with less food and that is good.
- *Don’t eat just to eat. Only eat if you are hungry. You should try your best to give your body
time to digest each meal. I try not to
snack between meals but at the beginning I was very hungry every 2 hours.
- *We try to eat on salad plates. One you eat less and two it looks like you
are eating more
- *Remember this is not a weight loss program. You are trying to reset your body to do what
its supposed to do and in the end you may lose some weight but right now I feel
amazing and I’ll take that any day!
- *Drink a lot of water. If you are not a water drinker it may be
tough at first but in the end it is worth it.
I have been able to work my way up to a gallon to gallon in a half of
water a day. I don’t force it in
anymore. I just am constantly drinking
water. Before I serve breakfast I have
already had 40-60 oz of water! I try and stop myself early in the evening so I’m
not up all night!
- * Don’t just jump in starting this program. Work your way into it. Get a meal plan together for the first
week. Buy your food. Prep it. Start making some changes a week or
so ahead of time. Get rid of the
temptations. This is not a diet it is a
life style change.
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Thursday, November 8, 2012
8 Day Detox?
In December of 2011 I read of a "friend" who had tried this new product. Of course the first thing I did was roll my eyes. No lie....
She mentioned it several times on Facebook and I felt as if she was just trying to sell something new. In March of 2012 I saw a before and after picture of her. My jaw hit the ground. She. Looked. Amazing.
So I started reading up on it and asked how much it was. You see, I'm a Pastors Wife and our income was very, very limited. Like after the bills were paid at the end of the months we had about $100 for gas and groceries. That is no exaggeration. So my heart was sad that after seeing the price I knew there was no way that would happen. By June I hit one of the lowest points of my life. As the months went by I just kept sinking deeper and deeper. My husband being one of the most patient and loving men in the world would encourage me, love on me and just be there when I just needed him there. Most days I stayed in my bed because I just didn't have the energy to do anything. A lot of times I slept 14-15 hours out of the day and I would just beg the Lord for something, anything. I should go back...
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| Here I am in 5th Grade. I was already being teased at this point in my life for being "fat". |
At the age of 11 I hit puberty. The crazy hormonal attitude was blamed on my teenage years and the fact that my family is not one to "talk" about anything really personal I had no idea something wasn't right. It wasn't until my grandparents came to visit us that my Nannie knew something wasn't right. My parents took me to the doctors, I met with children's specialist and had series after series of test. Their response in the end (after I gained over 100 pounds in just a couple of years) was I had a hormonal imbalance and if I lost the weight it would take care of it. So they put me on birth control at the age of 14 and sent me on my way. Let me just put a side note in here. I am all about doctors. I have family members and friends who are doctors or in the medical field. As I look back it would be the doctors words of how I was morbidly obese and that I needed to lose this weight that sent me into my years of depression. Please, if you are going to give advice to a young, hormonal, emotional and sensitive teenager, make sure you know what you are talking about. Ok...off that soap box and back to the story. I can look back and remember being so tired alllllllll the time. I slept when I could and every time i went to the kitchen I was being questioned by my parents as to what I was putting in my mouth. People (even my own family) got on the bandwagon informing of my weight and how "fat" I was. It was almost as if I didn't know or see it. I DID!
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| Here I am in Highschool with some friends. At this point I weighed in at about 250 Pounds |
I never really let how I felt on the inside about all the teasing and hurtful words show. I just put up wall after wall to try and hide the hurt. In 1998 I graduated and left for college. It was a small college so everyone knew everyone and that is where I met my husband. I remember learning about his previous girlfriends and they were all skinny and pretty and I remember one time he said to me "I never dated someone like you". He wasn't referring to my awesome personality (though I know he thinks I had one *grin*) or my independence He was referring to my size. He fell in love with me because of who I was not and not what I looked like. I told him before we married that I may never be able to have children. He still married me :)
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| On our Wedding day in 2001. I was close to 300 pounds here. |
Within the first year of our marriage I suffered two miscarriages. The first one was twins the second triplets. I was not healthy enough to carry them. Our marriage would not have survived having 5 babies and the Lord knew this. I dream of those babies today but I am thankful I will one day see them again. For the next 11 years my husband and I would grow closer, our love became stronger and my health would become worse. Doctor after doctors, diet after diet, and moment by moment I felt as if my life was slipping away. That brings me back to this past week.....
We did not have the money for this new "hope". My husband, determined more than ever to help me took a couple of part time jobs and said "order it Ann". So I did. I ordered the product on a Monday, it shipped on Tuesday and it arrived on Thursday. Thursday I was having such a bad day. I spent most of the day in bed. Tired, had a headache and wishing my life would change. My husband walked into the bedroom and said "I have a surprise for you" and handed me my package. It was instant joy. I opened it up, read every bottle, paper and got my list together. Headed to the store bought my protein. Friday morning I started my 8 day detox. By mid morning I was feeling so good. Had some energy, cleaned up, did the laundry and was very motivated. I went to sleep that night and slept so sound. I woke up on day two feeling really good! The energy I had was amazing. My husband could not get over how well I was doing. Day three came along and though I was struggling slightly with some cravings I felt really good. That was the only day I took a nap :) day four came along and i was feeling so good. My stomach was bothering me some and after talking with Nickole we had determined I may just be sensitive to one of the supplements on an empty stomach. After talking to her and Adelle I had decided I wanted to take a picture to see if there was a difference. At this point I was down 13.5 pounds and 30 inches. Something had to look different right?
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| The left is from the night before I started the 8 day detox. The picture on the right is the morning of the 5th day. |
I was in complete shock. I mean, seriously !?!?! Thats me?!?!?! Talk about a huge motivator!!! I shared this with my support group and they were just as shocked. I shared my testimony that night at a group (thank you technology!) meeting in troy Michigan through facetime. I enjoyed listening to the testimony's and being able to share mine.
As I type this, I am on day 7. I have lost a total of 20.5 pounds and 35.5 inches. I'm amazed at the energy I have. I feel amazing and my husband is just as amazed at how I am doing. Thankful for this moment. Praising the Lord for the opportunity and excited for my future!
My ultimate goal is to be healthy. We would love to start a family.
If you have any questions please feel free to ask! email me at annmarielee at gmail dot com
Onto the new me!
Saturday, November 3, 2012
Day Two....
Still going strong...
Went to bed around 10:30 last night and woke up at 6:45....
I was supposed to get 200 oz's of water in me...I only got 128....thats a lot of water right? Yeah well I woke up with a charlie horse!!! they weren't lying when they said you needed to drink half your body weight in ozs! lol
Today, I will get my water down! onto good news....
I lost 8.4 lbs and a total of 16 inches (4 from my waist!). I am more than excited!
Because I have not had any carbs (well other than what I get from the shake provided on the system) and no sugar I feel amazing! My gut does not feel bloated or in a lot of pain. They say between today (day two) and tomorrow I may struggle some with cravings....speaking of cravings....
You have no idea the habits you have! As I was prepping food yesterday I kept trying to put food in my mouth! I put a piece of chicken in and immediately spit it back out! lol I was like "Ann what in the world!!!" Last night we went to visit one of our dear ladies who just had back surgery a month ago and is having difficulties. After Tim and I left all i could think about was "I want to eat!" not because I was hungry....but because I just wanted to snack! I am not your typical heavy person. I don't over indulge (ok wait...if you give me a bag of reese cups then I will eat them...ALL! lol but that's about it! oh and maybe peanut butter m&m's) but I do snack when I'm bored! lol Soooooo I just have to retrain my body! Its good to be hungry, just not starving! I wanna burn that fat!!!
Ok, so now I just need to go get ready for the day....I'll let you know how today went in my update tomorrow! though tomorrow is church so I may be a little late in posting! lol
Went to bed around 10:30 last night and woke up at 6:45....
I was supposed to get 200 oz's of water in me...I only got 128....thats a lot of water right? Yeah well I woke up with a charlie horse!!! they weren't lying when they said you needed to drink half your body weight in ozs! lol
Today, I will get my water down! onto good news....
I lost 8.4 lbs and a total of 16 inches (4 from my waist!). I am more than excited!
Because I have not had any carbs (well other than what I get from the shake provided on the system) and no sugar I feel amazing! My gut does not feel bloated or in a lot of pain. They say between today (day two) and tomorrow I may struggle some with cravings....speaking of cravings....
You have no idea the habits you have! As I was prepping food yesterday I kept trying to put food in my mouth! I put a piece of chicken in and immediately spit it back out! lol I was like "Ann what in the world!!!" Last night we went to visit one of our dear ladies who just had back surgery a month ago and is having difficulties. After Tim and I left all i could think about was "I want to eat!" not because I was hungry....but because I just wanted to snack! I am not your typical heavy person. I don't over indulge (ok wait...if you give me a bag of reese cups then I will eat them...ALL! lol but that's about it! oh and maybe peanut butter m&m's) but I do snack when I'm bored! lol Soooooo I just have to retrain my body! Its good to be hungry, just not starving! I wanna burn that fat!!!
Ok, so now I just need to go get ready for the day....I'll let you know how today went in my update tomorrow! though tomorrow is church so I may be a little late in posting! lol
Friday, November 2, 2012
The time has come...
I'm 32 and struggling....my weight NEEDS to go....I'm determined more than ever to do this...
Today is day one of my new me.
I weighed, measured and prayed....
Yesterday, I was tired, my stomach was hurting, I wanted to just lay in my bed and never get up. I was struggling with my female issue (that I have been struggling with since June!) and life as I knew it was just overwhelming...
Today I woke up and knew that life would change!
I took my pill this morning, drank my shake, 2 hours later I ate my protein, two hours later I drank my shake, took some more pills, 2 1/2 hours later ate more protein, and while all this is happening I have downed 128 oz of water.
So its 5pm, how do I feel?
This morning I felt really good...worked on food prep most of the morning, about 4 hours worth! I cleaned the kitchen, folded and put away laundry and watched a show or two.
I feel like I've spent most of my afternoon in the bathroom.
I have the beginnings of a headache right now but I'm still feeling pretty good. a little hungry...trying to hold out until 6 before taking my last and final shake of the day :)
Hoping to see some great results tomorrow....can't wait :)
Today is day one of my new me.
I weighed, measured and prayed....
Yesterday, I was tired, my stomach was hurting, I wanted to just lay in my bed and never get up. I was struggling with my female issue (that I have been struggling with since June!) and life as I knew it was just overwhelming...
Today I woke up and knew that life would change!
I took my pill this morning, drank my shake, 2 hours later I ate my protein, two hours later I drank my shake, took some more pills, 2 1/2 hours later ate more protein, and while all this is happening I have downed 128 oz of water.
So its 5pm, how do I feel?
This morning I felt really good...worked on food prep most of the morning, about 4 hours worth! I cleaned the kitchen, folded and put away laundry and watched a show or two.
I feel like I've spent most of my afternoon in the bathroom.
I have the beginnings of a headache right now but I'm still feeling pretty good. a little hungry...trying to hold out until 6 before taking my last and final shake of the day :)
Hoping to see some great results tomorrow....can't wait :)
Friday, January 8, 2010
Update Number One...2010
Today is the first day that I am officially starting my life changing moment!
I am going to do my best to be rid of the many things that are harming my body by the end of this month! but my realistic goal is by March :)
Today for Breakfast I had
glass of OJ (Tropicana with lots of pulp)
Banana
Vitamins (Multi Vitamin for women, Iron, Calcium, and B12)
Snack
Tangelo
Lunch
Bowl of mixed veggies
So far so good...we shall see how I do around 4pm! that's one of the hardest parts of the day for me! Must stay busy!!!
I will be going to the gym tonight to walk on the treadmill :)
I am going to do my best to be rid of the many things that are harming my body by the end of this month! but my realistic goal is by March :)
Today for Breakfast I had
glass of OJ (Tropicana with lots of pulp)
Banana
Vitamins (Multi Vitamin for women, Iron, Calcium, and B12)
Snack
Tangelo
Lunch
Bowl of mixed veggies
So far so good...we shall see how I do around 4pm! that's one of the hardest parts of the day for me! Must stay busy!!!
I will be going to the gym tonight to walk on the treadmill :)
Sunday, January 3, 2010
Tomorrow is the day....for real!
Tomorrow is the day….
The day that I officially go full force in changing my life…with God’s help of course…and my husbands…and my family’s….and my friends…and YOUR help as well!!!
As a young teenager trying to understand the emotional roller coaster, trying to do right, doing all that I could (well maybe not all but mostly all that I could) to lose weight…it was no where in sight. I know you have heard my story more than once. If not, just scroll back a few blog entries and you’ll see it for yourself. It’s something I couldn’t come to grips with. Doctors telling me if I would lose the weight I wouldn’t have this problem or that problem. And yet, it wasn’t me losing the weight that was the issue. This year I will turn 30. 30 does not scare me. I take it on like I would any other birthday. What frightens me, is never conceiving. I mean, if God never wanted us to have a family, then that’s fine, it would be tough, but He knows what is best for us. I know as a Christian I should do all that I can to stay healthy and do right. As I researched this PCOS that a friend told me about I remember tears pooling in my eyes. My heart beating faster, my fingers searching the screen, and the moment I KNEW this is what I’ve been struggling with. PCOS to some is just a name that is used when they have no explanation of what it could be. This term was tossed around in my teen years, and even my young married years. No one told me anymore about it other than I was “insulin resistant” and needed to get onto some exercise regiment. Well dear dr, who has spent years upon years, in and out of college, how does one do this when they have no energy? How does one do this when their iron levels are in the single digits and the simplest chore such as folding clothes makes you want to go and lay down and take a 3-4 hour nap? Oh Iron you say? I should pump myself full of iron…..
So that is what I felt for over 17 years. I had no control over my moods, emotions, feelings, strength, and pretty much my life! I had no answers, no explanation other than I was fat and needed to be on a “diet”. July of this year I started my new way of “dieting”. I had found this blog and from this blog, I was introduced to a new world of eating. Mckmama, as she refers to herself, made me feel “normal”. She would love for her family to eat nothing but wholesome, fresh, no preservatives, natural food but well then life happens, and she has a bunch of little ones that keep her pretty busy. So eating healthy, natural, and not fully of preservatives, is not possible all the time, but she has so much great information on her blog! And then I found this blog. She refers to herself as the Spunky Coconut. Boy does she have quite the challenge. She HAS to eat healthy or her family will suffer as they all have allergies to certain foods. So I look at these two families, and though they are at opposite ends of the spectrum, I know that if they can do it…I can too! I don’t even have children so it should be easier right??? Lol
So today…Sunday, January 3, 2010 I state that I am going to do all that I can to eat “right”. I am on day 21 of no soda! The craving is not as “strong” as it once was but it’s still there….
I had already planned on starting January 5, 2010 to start my healthy way of eating. I will be taking the unhealthy items out of my daily diet and replacing them with the healthier way. I know what some of you may be thinking but in July and August of 2009 I got a small taste of what it’s like to eat organic, raw, whole foods and I felt sooooo much better! I’m not going to go too crazy and become a tree hugger or anything. Though you may find me hugging a coconut tree cause of all the goodness it holds for you and all but other than that I’m just trying to get rid of what is harming me. I will enjoy life, I will find a new love for food. Trust me, I’m not going vegetarian or anything…not that, that is bad or anything, just not me! I actually have to learn to love veggies. I like them but I have to learn to want them. Tonight, my goal is to sit down and make a “what Ann can eat” and my menu for this week. My goal this week is to walk one mile 3 times a week. From there I will up the amount and the times. Sooo…if you are on board and want to be part of my cheering squad…please check up on me. Please pray for me…please ask me whats new…and if I haven’t blogged in a while…tell me I need too. I may not like you at first (big grin) but I will always be thankful….
So its to a new me….
The day that I officially go full force in changing my life…with God’s help of course…and my husbands…and my family’s….and my friends…and YOUR help as well!!!
As a young teenager trying to understand the emotional roller coaster, trying to do right, doing all that I could (well maybe not all but mostly all that I could) to lose weight…it was no where in sight. I know you have heard my story more than once. If not, just scroll back a few blog entries and you’ll see it for yourself. It’s something I couldn’t come to grips with. Doctors telling me if I would lose the weight I wouldn’t have this problem or that problem. And yet, it wasn’t me losing the weight that was the issue. This year I will turn 30. 30 does not scare me. I take it on like I would any other birthday. What frightens me, is never conceiving. I mean, if God never wanted us to have a family, then that’s fine, it would be tough, but He knows what is best for us. I know as a Christian I should do all that I can to stay healthy and do right. As I researched this PCOS that a friend told me about I remember tears pooling in my eyes. My heart beating faster, my fingers searching the screen, and the moment I KNEW this is what I’ve been struggling with. PCOS to some is just a name that is used when they have no explanation of what it could be. This term was tossed around in my teen years, and even my young married years. No one told me anymore about it other than I was “insulin resistant” and needed to get onto some exercise regiment. Well dear dr, who has spent years upon years, in and out of college, how does one do this when they have no energy? How does one do this when their iron levels are in the single digits and the simplest chore such as folding clothes makes you want to go and lay down and take a 3-4 hour nap? Oh Iron you say? I should pump myself full of iron…..
So that is what I felt for over 17 years. I had no control over my moods, emotions, feelings, strength, and pretty much my life! I had no answers, no explanation other than I was fat and needed to be on a “diet”. July of this year I started my new way of “dieting”. I had found this blog and from this blog, I was introduced to a new world of eating. Mckmama, as she refers to herself, made me feel “normal”. She would love for her family to eat nothing but wholesome, fresh, no preservatives, natural food but well then life happens, and she has a bunch of little ones that keep her pretty busy. So eating healthy, natural, and not fully of preservatives, is not possible all the time, but she has so much great information on her blog! And then I found this blog. She refers to herself as the Spunky Coconut. Boy does she have quite the challenge. She HAS to eat healthy or her family will suffer as they all have allergies to certain foods. So I look at these two families, and though they are at opposite ends of the spectrum, I know that if they can do it…I can too! I don’t even have children so it should be easier right??? Lol
So today…Sunday, January 3, 2010 I state that I am going to do all that I can to eat “right”. I am on day 21 of no soda! The craving is not as “strong” as it once was but it’s still there….
I had already planned on starting January 5, 2010 to start my healthy way of eating. I will be taking the unhealthy items out of my daily diet and replacing them with the healthier way. I know what some of you may be thinking but in July and August of 2009 I got a small taste of what it’s like to eat organic, raw, whole foods and I felt sooooo much better! I’m not going to go too crazy and become a tree hugger or anything. Though you may find me hugging a coconut tree cause of all the goodness it holds for you and all but other than that I’m just trying to get rid of what is harming me. I will enjoy life, I will find a new love for food. Trust me, I’m not going vegetarian or anything…not that, that is bad or anything, just not me! I actually have to learn to love veggies. I like them but I have to learn to want them. Tonight, my goal is to sit down and make a “what Ann can eat” and my menu for this week. My goal this week is to walk one mile 3 times a week. From there I will up the amount and the times. Sooo…if you are on board and want to be part of my cheering squad…please check up on me. Please pray for me…please ask me whats new…and if I haven’t blogged in a while…tell me I need too. I may not like you at first (big grin) but I will always be thankful….
So its to a new me….
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